Reading Reaction #4: The War Within

A time when I walked alone, and suddenly felt the beauty of the place was when, I was in the back of my brothers yard and I was walking on a cement, paved, path, that my family and I had laid down to walk on. It leads to a playground made for the children to play on, then back to either the BBQ area, or to the bridge over a small pond that led to the back door. While walking on it, I felt the beauty of the place when admiring the job that we did: converting a reddish brown, rock filled, and dried up wasteland into a fresh flowered and inviting yard. The feeling gave me a relief of disbelief being overwhelmed with the protruding colors of the new lively nature surrounding me.

What is the best way to study for finals?

For me, the best way to study is to concentrate on studying and make sure I have everything memorized. But, before I even start Go over every single thing that I have written down on paper, even if it's the same things written down over, and over and over again. It is still helpful, the reason for me doing so, is because it helps me remember those information even better, and trust myself that it's the right thing to do. See, sometimes when notes are written over and over again, it's more than likely that, that's important information. Even though the final might not include a question on those notes, it's still useful because it'll help remind me of another question that has something related with it. Sometimes, after studying, I go over what I've studied by giving myself read out loud questions and try to see if I can remember the correct answer. If I don't succeed then, I go over it again until I do, which does not take a lot of time at all. Say and repeat the answer as several time as possible until I am confident to myself that I have that answer jotted down and I don't have any second thoughts, for when I do, I always assume that I have forgotten it. Also, to begin with, I should always pay attention to my instructor and the hints and expectations he tells me. The areas he says that it will be on will be up to me to decide if I should believe him or not depending on how his personality has been from the first day class started all the way to when the final begins. To know a person is to learn from him/her, so cease the moment and don't forget the things that are to be expected on the final. But, the best thing is to relax and know that I got the answers to passing the final. It's not a bad thing to feel like I'm unsure, the best thing is to use that opportunity to study even more, building my confidence to a level where I know I'll be satisfied with the answers I put down. On the day that I take the final, if I go blink, I just think back to all the studying that I have done and soon all the answers will be coming back. So don't stress over with the thought that final is coming up and don't say I don't know what to do because excuses only distract myself from doing well on the test.

Reading Reaction #3: I Wish

Write a description of a place in nature. It might be a beach , a forest, a field, a mountain, a lake, and so on. In your description, try to be very specific and to use sense words.

In the mountains, a field of pine trees. Protruding one's and falttered one's. All around me were natures voice in the air, surrounding me with every single noise you can possibly think of. Attracting every sense of mine, making them so acute that I could feel every single threat of fear rushing through my spine as the hair behind my head stood up as if it were warning me of danger. Turning my pleasurable thoughts of getting a chance to spend time with nature for once in my life into delusions of fear. As scared as I was, I headed back the way I came from stomping my way back and doing it as hard as I could, for I thought that if I did that it would distract my sense of hearing from other noises and that I would be able to scare off anything that would want to commit any harm to me. Stomping my way back was hard because my fear was so enormous now that I thought that if I lost my attention on my stomping that I would be attacked by a wilder beast. Faster and faster I did, all the way back until I had reached the comfort of solid rock. From then on up until now I still shake with fear whenever I'm alone at any place. Without anyone talking to me then I will never ever be the same again.

What are your summer plans?

My summer plans aren't much to talk about because I don't really have much planned out at all. See, what I was thinking about was to just re-register for some more classes and attend school during the summer. And then whatever comes along the way, or in between the time, or during the time that I'm in school, then I will apply myself to that thing. And it all depends on what it is, which I anticipate that not much will be happening at all. Not with me, I can say. Now to go off and just say what kind of thing's I might be doing, on the other hand, would be staying home and doing homework, taking care of my nephews and nieces, and giving a helping hand whenever my father or mother needs it. Other things could be going out of town to Six Flags Marine World for some fun, but some how, for some reason, now a days, it doesn't seem as fun as it was back then anymore. I feel like I am getting old and thing's aren't how they use to be anymore. Also, I am getting very lazy now. I hardly do anything for myself and almost hardly anything for anybody else. I think I am starting to give up on my dreams and goals as well. But that is just what I think so I will never know the outcome of anything any more. Sometimes, I feel like I just want to close my eyes and go to sleep for a while and when my mind is set again, then awaken and begin my life differently, as if, to find what it is that my body, soul, and mind want's me to do. Right now, sometimes, I think to myself that I am living a life of frustration and I'm trying to break free of it.

What do you like most about the town where you live (or your hometown)? What would you change about it?

What I like most about my town is the fact that everywhere you turn; you're so close to nature. Just like how my older sister, three older brother and my parent's use to live when they were back in Laos. It makes it seem to me as if I am living a life they use to because I never got the chance to experience what it was really like to live with nature. Even, still, I don't think, I even experiencing what it would be like. Along with the chance of being able to live near nature or still having wildlife around the area where I live is, I think a great opportunity for me. I like hunting, fishing and camping, and doing all the great outdoor stuff that anybody and everybody would love and enjoy doing. Even though I am banned from it for at least two more years, I hope someday I will be able to do that kind of things again. I'm still really pissed off that I was the one who was banned out of the three of us. It was my younger brother, my older brother, and I. We went hunting and considered left behind and my family was not able to find me all the way until midnight. After that, my parents were not comfortable letting me go again for at least three years. Well, I have already served one year out of the three years they have sentenced me, but I can't wait 'til the time comes again when I will be able to go out into the wilderness again. To tell you the truth, I was a great hunter and my older brothers know that too, but with my parents' wishes, I respect them even more, so I was willing to sacrifice my hobbies for what they wanted me to do.

What three things would you bring with you to a deserted island? Why?

Three thing's that I would bring to a deserted island would be a life's worth of water, a life's worth of food, and last but not least a life's worth of people. If it's a deserted island, of course I'm going to bring a life's worth of water. I would not want to die from dehydration or anything. I don't need alcohol or anything 'cause that'll even dehydrate you even faster. And any drinks that would have a sweetness in it, I don't need those either because after drinking them, it makes you have a dry throat, and the fact that it is too sweet would cause you to drink even more. I would bring a life's worth of food because I wouldn't know how long I would be on that island and I wouldn't want to die of starvation. Looking at the picture, I know that I'm going to become hungry pretty fast and soon. With nothing on the Island for food, i would have no place to search for food. Now, last but not least, I would bring a life's worth of people. I wouldn't want to be bored to death. It's more like let's party, since there is nothing in the world to bother us and we don't need anything else. The food and the water supply would never run out because I would have people shipping them in all the time. It would be more of like a secret island just to get away from life.

If you had the time to volunteer, where would you volunteer? What would you do? Why? (If you do volunteer work, describe what you do!)

If I had the time to volunteer I would volunteer at saving people who smoke. Now what I mean is that, I would find scarier facts to scare the people who smoke away from smoking. Even if I had to lie about it because come to think of it, there are smokers out there who are not really happy about smoking. It was not something that they planned to do except that it just arrived or happened and you can't get away from it. It's funny ,but I think it would be a great idea to do. Even though it might seem to be a dumb idea to do that, I would do it anyways. Now, I know that there are other ways to accomplish the task that I wax thinking of, but I've seen enough and waited long enough. There are millions of billions, or even better billions of people out there in the world who are dying from not just cancer, but many other factors that are from the cause of tobacco and nicotine. To tell you the truth, I am one of them. Everyday I scare myself by learning more and more about the outcome of smoking, and I hope there are people out there doing the same thing because that shit really works. It scares the shit out of me, but once in a while I do grab a smoke once here and there, but every time I do the thoughts of the outcome comes to my mind and sometimes the affects are so strong that I usually end up throwing it away after it being lit. The place where I would volunteer would be just around public places where people smoke. And the thing's I'd do would be to make fun of them, or just tell them the basic facts about smoking even though while I'm in the process of smoking one myself. Make it seem like I am a crazy person and hopefully make them realize it and one day for them to think to themselves that "I don't want to make it seem like I'm the type of person he is," and one day for them to be able to quit. Basically being a bad example for them to grow up knowing that thing's I do are bad.

Describe a time when you had to make a difficult decision. What did you do? How did you choose?

A time when I had to make a difficult decision would be when I was a kid. I and my sister went into my families' car. At that time I was probably only 2-4 years of age, and my sister was probably around the age of 3-5. Well, it was a beautiful day and we were having a cultural activity so there were a lot of people over. Yeah my parent's partied and had a lot of fun, meanwhile, me and my older sister were crawling into the two front seats of a 87 blue Toyota Corolla. The driver side was occupied by me and the passenger was occupied by my sister. We both were having as much fun as my family and relatives were having as well. I was holding the steering wheel and turning it left to right as if you would be driving regularly because I had seen my dad do it before and I had the thought that I wanted to be just like my dad. Then the stupidest thing came up and it was my sister having no idea what she was doing, released the E-brake (emergency brake) and the car started rolling. Our driveway was pretty steep so it rolled quickly. I mean I was a little kid so even if it rolled slowly, it seemed hell fast for me. The next thing I new, she had already did super-man or woman out of the car from the passenger side. At the moment the car had picked up too much speed so I didn't know what to do. Then I thought to myself, what the fuck am I going to do. I thought quickly and the result that came was for me to jump out the same exact way as my sister did, but through the driver side. I hesitated as I jumped and the seat belt caught my leg. Now that was a hard decision for me to make. If you want to know more then or the end result of my decision making then don't hesitate to ask.

If you had the power to change the law, what law(s) would you change? Why?

If I had the power to change the law, I wouldn't know what to change at all. I would just do what I think are right and I do not know what that just might be. Maybe I would have to have all of the people to decide that for me because from my point of view, the people should be the one's who make the law and not just put it on one person. If it was me, I would want to be the one who agrees with the stronger part of the group; on the other hand, if I had something to say about it, I wouldn't want to know about what law is being changed because if I did, and when I start to argue about something, I usually go overboard on my part of action. I'm usually scared of myself when I start to argue because when I start I don't stop until my point is understood even though I might be wrong, I don't give a fuck. So I just pretend like I understand people when they talk about other people or what's right and what's wrong and many other aspects just so that they get done talking about it and leave me alone. Sometimes they notice my doing and they say things like, "Thank you for listening or I just had to say it to get it off my mind." Sometimes usually they come and talk to me about those things because they are looking for advices or suggestions and I just tell them whatever to get it off their mind. It's like putting something new into their system, so that it can lead them into a different direction. But the only law I have in mind is that I would change is the law that allows people to bare arms; such as, having gun's or any type's of weapon at all. There's always your fist to deal with problems.

Describe your dream vacation. Use as much detail as possible.

My dream vacation would be to travel to a place far away from civilization and just enjoy the relaxation of having a calm and quiet environment. Pretty much like the picture you see on the right. Enjoying nature you could say, but instead of actually moving to a place exactly like the one in the picture, it would just be more like moving to a place like that within your mind or thoughts. When you think about it, it does give you a calm, collected feeling and relaxation as if you were really out on a vacation. But to be honest, my dream vacation would be going on a real vacation as well as going to vacatons inside my head too. Having the biggest sigh of relief. Maybe even enjoying the mixed feeling of danger and happiness, while exploring the vast mountains of the wilderness. Always having the thought of not knowing what to be expected of encountering when climbing up a side of a cliff, or just having danger on your conscious. Maybe sit on the edge of the dock and do some fishing. Skip some rocks on the surface of the lake and do some boat riding. After that go hunting for some squirrels or whatever's out there for me to shoot at. Then just come back to the log cabin and cook it for dinner and then sleep afterwards. Probably just do the same thing over and over because I like the thought of just having a certain quantity of thing's to do so I wouldn't have so much on my mind and just stick to a few thing's. Doing a lot of stuff at one time causes confusion and frustration which I don't like very much.

Reading Reaction #2: When Words Get in the Way

In a paragraph, explain what Clarke means when he says that, in America, the language seems to make him feel as if he is "looking reversed." Include incident's Clarke describes when he discovers a word means something quite different from what he thought it did.

Clarke probably means that he never new that words he used had opposite or negative effects based on the meaning of whatevers in relation to those words. He never sought to think of the English-language in any other form except that it was just used for communication between one another. For example, he recalled a time when his neighbor called him "boy," he thought that the word boy was a common word that grown ups call young boy's by because back in his home country which was Jamaica, that word was used commonly. But his other neighbor which was an African-American and had a history with slavery told him that the word has it's root's in slavery. It was to be deemed derogatory when used by his white neighbor. So Clarke let his neighbor know about what he had heard and now knew. It made the neighbor realize that it was probably something wrong to be saying and he stopped referring Clarke by the word boy. At the end Clarke found out that he, the neighbor was from Hungary and was not yet accustomed to choosing his words according to historical context too.

How would you like to be remembered?

I would like to be remembered as being a person who knew right from wrong and as or like punisher that punished the bad that did wrong thing's to other people as well as to themselves ha,ha,ha. Just playing, but you'd never know. Who, whenever did something, did it for a good cause. Even under the circumstances that I even had to do bad thing's, that they were done for the best of everything and not just for one particular being or thing. And that I was a person who knew the right time to take these action's. And the end results are always good even if not perfect, they always tend to lead to a happy ending. A person who had a whole lot of determination and ambition in achieving goals that I had set for myself and even goals that other people had set for me. That I never stopped even when I had the least idea of what was needed to be done and what the situation was. Someone who made a whole lot of mistakes but at the end there's always someone there to help the situation out by correcting my mistakes. A person who feels lost but still making it through life even if I had done the stupidest thing's. A role model for people who has or is experiencing the same ideal thing. But all these thing's are thing's that I used to do or think I was doing until I made the mistake of doing it to the one's who had taught me, which was my family, friends, and all and any people that were around me. I was going overboard and now I feel stupid just thinking about what I did wrong. I've never been proven wrong before and after I've been proved wrong once by my brother I felt as if I'm a whole new person. That's why I say I feel lost because I don't know that new person.

What will life be like 20 years from now? What will you be doing?

To tell you the truth I can't really say what life would be like, twenty years from now because I can't predict the future of my life, the only thing I can do is have something planned out and hope that it turns out the way I want it to. But if I had to say what Twenty years from now would be like, I'd probably say that I would be a old man or sure feel like one. 'Cause what is the age where you would consider yourself as being old? Well, back to what I was saying earlier, with a wife and some kids and being one big happy family. The world would be living in the enviroment of safety. Not being afraid, scared, and just seeing one another as equals, minding there own business and doing there own thing. For me not to worry about my kids and hopefully by that time something phonomenal happens and my kids get really smart and knows how to take care of themself and there own problems so I wouldn't have to worry about them all the time. Being successful in achieving my long term goals but still trying to make sure everything is done perfectly. Hopefully by that time they have created new technologies that would allow people a easier life. Like flying cars or whatever to make traveling easier for everybody. But what can I say, these are things that I would want and not even the actual fact of my life twenty years from now. It's hard for me to say what life would be like twenty years from now because I see life as living every single day, one day at a time.

How has the world changed since you were a child? Are these changes good or bad?

To me the world has changed a lot from when I was a child. Everything, for example: the people I hang out with, social conversations based on the subjects, events to activities that I used to love doing and now not even thinking about them anymore. Just life itself has changed so much. Things don't seem like how they would be or when doing something theres no more feeling of liking or the sensation's of wanting to go at it anymore. To me I just say that I'm getting too old and this is the way I'm suppose to feel. But a part of me says that I'm wrong so now a days I just don't think about it at all. Or maybe it's just that I don't do the same thing's I used or would be doing if I were still a kid. I would say that all the changes that had happened so far are good and bad. Good because I know that I'm moving along in life and that thing's like this do happen and I know how to cope with it. Bad because it's the past times that were the funnest and I don't want to let that go either. But come to think of it thing's change all the time and most of the time you can't do anything to differ those changes. The way I see it the more you think about it and try to reverse or fight the changes in your life the more hurt and trouble your going to cause to yourself. Just don't let the changes around effect you.

Write about a favorite memory from your childhood.

A favorite memory from my childhood would be when I was in pre-school. The name of my school was Poplar Elementary School in Oroville, CA if I remember correctly. All the time that I spent there were great, all the emotions of a human being was or were revealed there, compared to now having to hide some emotions just to hide myself and pretend to be someone that I am not. But the best thing I liked during that time would be the moments of laughter, being happy. Used to make gingerbread man/houses after the teacher got done reading the story and the teachers would hide our gingerbread man and we would have to search for them the next day. Then recess was also fun because getting the chance to ride those small red scooters or bicycles all around the blacktop seeing who was the fastest one. The best thing of all, during those time I wasn't even thinking about what I was doing. It seemed as if I had no boundary for myself. I just did whatever as long as I had fun. Then we had Easter, I had the advantage because my mom was one of the person who had hid the eggs and at that time it was actually my first time ever to easter egg hunt so I didn't know what to do so my mom told me where all the eggs were and at the end I was the person who had the most eggs. But my mom handed out the eggs so we had an equal amount.

Describe a "perfect weather" day. What would you do on a day like this?

A perfect weather day would be a day that consists of the sun way up high into the sky but not too hot. With a little breeze, but this breeze not to be too cold, more like a mid-summer/winter breeze. So when people are outside standing around they are not talking or doing any other activities or even moving around. Just standing still, or laying down on their backs in and on the mid-height dark green grass and realizing that that particular day is going to be the best day of their life. On a day like this the only thing that I would be doing or be liking to do is find a perfect spot and just be there. Feeling comfortable enough to know that nothing in the world, the universe can affect me in any way. Come to think of it, it would be like having all four seasons combined ( Spring, + Summer,+ Fall, + Winter = the perfect weather day ), but with a little Autunm setting in it or for the background if you were picturing it. I mean, I wished that everyday was like this, not to worry so much about everything or anything and just sit back relax and enjoy the day. Days like this are very hard to find and in experiencing it before, makes me wonder if a day like this would ever come again. A perfect weather day like the one I'm talking about are days that sometimes just flows right by without me noticing it until I really think about it.

If you could invite three famous people to dinner, who would you invite? What would you talk about? What would you eat?

If I could invite three famous people over for dinner at my house I would invite Jet Li, Chuck Norris, and probably Jackie Chan. I would invite Bruce Lee but he's dead so that can't happen. Thing's I would talk about with Jet Li would be thing's about martial arts status. Such thing's or question's like: How long did it take you to train to be as good as you are? When did you begin martial arts training? What kind of thing's did you have to do, while you were training? What type of martial arts do you use or what is it called?

Now the reason why I would invite Chuck Norris would be because he's the closes I can get to Bruce Lee by. Knowing that he was trained by Bruce and have worked with Bruce in one dof his films. Also because my mom really likes his TV show called Walker Texas Ranger. Thing's he and I would talk about would be thing's that he did with Bruce, how did Bruce train him and how was is like knowing that he had the chance to work with a martial arts legend.

And last but not least Jackie Chan. Thing's I would ask him would be about his personal stunt's that he does by himself. If he ever planned on doing a certain thing when he was about to do those stunts. His personality, how does he keep it up always being so happy. And if he had went through the same training as Jet Li did. And the last question I would ask all of them would be: how do I become like them, famous, smart, skilled and in the film industry as in becoming as actor like them and do the thing's they do.

Thing's that we'd feat would be a mixture of chinese food, maybe even have Jet and Jackie cook it, also my own traditional food, and the food I usually eat, American food.

Reading Reaction #1: One Man's Kids

Write a paragraph explaining why Danial Meier enjoys his work.

In the reading "One Man's Kids", the reasons why Daniel Meirer enjoys his work being a elemantary teacher is because he enjoyed working with kids and even him, himself enjoyed being a kid. He enjoyed encouraging, supporting, consoling, and praising children. He liked bringing smiles to unhappy faces, putting bandages on wounds, and helping a child find a missing boot ( if we don't find my boot my mom is going to kill me)as it said. From what I read I think he enjoys being around them, helping them and playing with them. He enjoys the fact that he doesn't have to be apart of adulthood, or working jobs that would be considered manly. He prefered taking kids to the playground to taking clients to a cocktail or for a cocktail, and having drinking buddies, etc...

What is your definition of love?

My definition of love. What does love mean? Is there anything real about love? Do you want the big portion of love or just the small portion of love? To me I think love can mean anything. As in just loving to sit, is already considered love to me. In the word love comes many definition, meanings, examples, and many many many other stuff that I can't find the exact words to decribe it. But to be more precise or speciffically from everything that I have ever gathered and poured into my knowledge or should I say: with a my thoughts and the knowledge I have I think that love is what you feel for someone,something or for anything. It could also be someone, something or anything feeling loved by me. Love is a feelings from the emotions people get when they are treated a certain way depending on what they like. Now, my definition of love is being respected for the things I do and for loving me for who I am and not for who or what I am trying to be. I hate trying to be someone who I am not. I've always wished that I was able to be who I really am. Like for example if someone was to come up to me and asked or talked to me and I didn't like it I would just be able to say that I don't like it. It's like a form of being my own boss. Being true. And if people were to make comment's, I would like not to be apart of whatever they are doing. Love is liking what you do and not the likes of other people.

What is worth fighting for?

Now, what can I name that is worth fighting for? That's a hard question even to ask myself knowing that I think everything is worth fighting for. But to be specific about just what is worth fighting for I would have to say my education. To me, my education is very important and also to my parents, my mom especially, my friends: with them always saying " we depend on you out of the rest of us because we don't think we can do it anymore," and to every single person that I have talked with about my education, for example people that I have worked with, people I have worked for except one who didin't want me to be attending school anymore and did not give me a good explanation. I didn't know what to think so I got myself fired from that job and at the end felt actually glad and happy that I did. Well all that I can say is that if it is important enough to me, my family, my friends, and everybody else that mentions it's a good thing then I would have to say that it is worth all my effort to fight for. I guess a three and a half year spent on thinking and asking others on what their opinion on me planning to do with my future got me going and thinking in the right direction. All throughout during those times I've talked to any of those people I've always asked them to join me in my life long goal or journy and for so long and so far none of them has seem to be influenced by me at all and I'm always influenced by them, but I do hope that one day I will be able to find a partner of my own that can help show me some new examples of what education has to offer and take that person in as someone who will always be there with me even after what they have taught or said to me what is worth fighting for.

Describe someone who is close to you. What do you admire most about this person?

Someone who is close to me would be my mom. The reason why my mom is close to me or is the person who I admire the most about is because I am able to relate to her and communicate to her in any way that I would feel necessary to. Even if I was mean, nice or even if I wasn't telling her the truth. The reason why I feel comfortable to lie to her is because even if I did and she knew I was, she wouldn't say anything back. It seemed as if she knew my every thought and she would cover me for my actions. For the rest of my other family members they are much different. If they knew I was not telling them the truth they would always have something to say back that would either embarass me or get me in trouble. They don't ever watch what they say before saying it and that is what I hate about the rest of my family. I've always listened to my mother and did what she wanted me to do for myself, her and everybody else. I guess that is what made me the way I am today and I have no regrets at all because I feel that I turned out to be a great person. Now with people outside my family, I would have to say that I admire everybody that comes in contact with me because from everybody that does, I always learn something new and that is what I admire about them.

What makes you happy? What can you do to bring more happiness to your life?

Something or thing's that would make me happy. A lot of thing's would make me happy. For example being able to do whatever I like, whenever I like, how I like, and where I like. Now for any body they would want the same thing, but for me those are thing's or decisions that I rarely ever get to do or make for myself just because I come from a family with strict restrictions. So it's really important to me and I'd really like to be able to do them too. So basically freedom would be something that would make me happy. Another thing that would make me happy is to have the feeling of completeness. Now what I mean by completeness is that I know my life is complete. Having everything that I need right in front of me and around me so I wouldn't have to worry about looking for whatever when it is needed.

To bring more happiness into my life I would need to do just what I said. Make those thing's happen. Take control of them and not let it control me. Having doubts that I can't do this because of this. Think more about myself and be sure I know what I'm doing and that whatever I invest in is worth the time, energy and so on. Or I could just go the other way around and give up on what I would like and want for myself and go with what other people would want of me and try a change for a difference and then, maybe I'll be happy.

Describe your dream job. What would you do in this position? What would you enjoy about it?

My dream job is really still a blur in my head. I have so many option's that I don't even know where or what I would want as far as a job. To myself I say that I'm dedicated on majoring or becoming a Social Worker and which under that category work as a Eligibility Specialist or maybe something even better because most of all of my family memebers have that as their occupation and I look at their lives and it seems as if their happy with what their doing. In this position I would have the chance to work on my communication skills and be able to help people who are in need of help. Such as in Medical Assistance, Cash Aid and many other thing's that the county has to offer, another thing is they provide assistance on helping people find jobs and the best thing about it is that you just go in and apply for whatever you need. They have all the assistance that there can be to offer for people who are willing to go and ask for it. I think what I would enjoy most about it would be, being able to associate with people and learn from one another. Also getting to work with my family and getting a chance to learn from them and when working with them it seems as if I'm in a competition to see who is able to do a better job at what they do best and being able to work under their supervision, it gives me a secure enviroment to work in.

How can you get the most out of your time at Butte College?

The way I think I can get the most out of my time at Butte Community College is for me to set and know my priorities and take action and making it as part of my responsibility to get those priorities completed before continuing or going on into anything else. Know where to go for resource and start learning how to communicate with other students, work with other students and stop trying to always do things on my own. Knowing that this is a privilige that will lead me to great opportunities and I need to take thing's seriously. Basically what I am trying to say is that I need to set my priorities straight and get them down into my head or brain or whatever because one thing that I can really notice about myself is that I can't keep at it on just doing one thing at a time and making sure it is finish before I move onto another. That is what's throwing me off everytime. I always think back and think on what I am doing then I'll notice what I'm doing wrong and it makes me feel like I'm confusing and frustrating myself or as if somethings missing. But in a way I guess that's the way I am but in another way I guess that's not who I am. But I need to open up more and let others know about where I'm at or where I'm coming from and hopefully I'll be able to get the help that I need to be able to get the most out of the time that I'm at Butte College.

What are your goals and/or expectations for this semester?

I have so many goals that I don't know where to start and when it will end. But right now I'll start with the one I have in mind which is to succeed in passing this semester and to make sure that I put all of my effort into doing so.

My only expectation is to receive all the things that I would need to be able to achieve my goal. To tell you the truth I think that expectations shouldn't be or is a bad thing to have in mind. Because to expect something is to need and when you need something and at the end you find out that that is not what your going to be getting, that will be the one thing that is going to hold you back from doing all the other things that you would of done if you did get what you've expected. And plus it'll probably lead you into doing something that you wouldn't want to do, perhaps like a mistake that will cause a downfall in your life. Some other goals that I have for the semester are to be able to get all the unit that I have registered for and raise my GPA and pass these classes. READ-127, MATH-108, LEAD-217 AND PE-19B (Weight Training). I'm really pushing myself to make sure that I learn in these classes and prepare myself for my next level classes. Failing is what I hate the most and is not what I would want to have happen because every time I fail at doing something, a big part or portion of, you can say my self-esteem or confidence disappears and it makes me effortless at trying again. I am expected by myself to make it through and out of college and I hope I get all the help I can get to be able to accomplish this task.